Saturday, March 7, 2009

What I meant to say

That last blog just sort of took off on its own after I wrote the title. Work is on my mind, a little, but what I had intended to write about (which some of you can guess) is that I need a good, hard spanking.

I'm going to Paddles NYC tonight for the monthly OTK party, and reports indicate that there WILL be decent tops there. There's a dom, M., whom I haven't played with in ages. For various reasons when I'd last seen him I couldn't do a hard scene. I was recovering from surgery, I was recovering from another hard scene, etc. But he's a great player, extremely dominant, and will push me, WILL give me the pain I crave, so if I see him it may be time.

Scott and Miranda will also be coming from Philly, with the Family Strap in their bag. I don't know if I can deal with the "F'nFS" again. But I do love playing with Scott. Also haven't seen Miranda in ages and we're hoping to co-top some worthy sub. Key word "worthy." Who's worthy? We'll know him when we see him, LOL!

We'll be at the munch at Moonstruck Diner (9th Ave. and 23rd St.) at 5:30 p.m. Rad already announced on his blog earlier this week that we'll be doing a prize giveaway -- just for the fuck of it. Come early, you might bring a prize home.

I am feeling needy. My friends know it's been stressful lately. Yeah, I know that no one who wasn't going to Shadow Lane feels sorry for us having to cancel! ... but I feel sorry ... waa. (Sticking thumb in mouth like a big baby).

Is it addictive behavior to crave a hard scene? To try to handle, or alleviate, some of the suckiness life hands you sometimes? Maybe. But it hurts no one. Except me, for a little while. LOL.


Indy said...

I'm not as SL, but I'm still sorry you guys didn't get to go! And I know that there are a lot of people who are there who are even more sorry!

I hope Paddles is a blast tonight-- you guys certainly deserve a break.


Anonymous said...

I wasn't going to Shadow Lane and I feel sorry you had to cancel! (I'm funny that way) I know you were looking forward to it!

Hope you have a great time at Paddles. Maybe you could pipe in some casino noises and try and pretend it was Shadow Lane?

Wednesday Addams said...

I can't go to SL now because of finances, and I definitely felt the hurt when your trip got yanked out from under you. You add a lot to that party and I know you will be missed.

Ms. Cassandra (Sandy) Park said...

Thanks, Indy, Iggy, and Wednesday. Paddles WAS a lot of fun last night. People seemed to like our little raffle, I topped some VERY appealing bottoms including this very hot little goth chick, and I got the hard spankings I was craving.

Anonymous said...

Sandy, think of it this way: HAD you and Rad GONE to SL....we all would have been the pissier for it at Paddles! Umm, ok. I see the blank look you are giving me. ;-)
But, HELLS yeah..there was a LOT going on last night! I was topping a guy in the back room ( I THOUGHT I was 'mean'.. only to later find out I am apparently a lightweight...Feh!) and that goth girl was getting it GOOD and HARD from her goth-daddy! Wow! Those sounds! Twenty minutes later she was giggling in the ladies room...blissed out of her skull! Gotta luv it. I totally hear you that you just sometimes want ( NEED) it good and long and hard. It gets you out of your head. Be well. ~Lise