That last blog just sort of took off on its own after I wrote the title. Work is on my mind, a little, but what I had intended to write about (which some of you can guess) is that I need a good, hard spanking.
I'm going to Paddles NYC tonight for the monthly OTK party, and reports indicate that there WILL be decent tops there. There's a dom, M., whom I haven't played with in ages. For various reasons when I'd last seen him I couldn't do a hard scene. I was recovering from surgery, I was recovering from another hard scene, etc. But he's a great player, extremely dominant, and will push me, WILL give me the pain I crave, so if I see him it may be time.
Scott and Miranda will also be coming from Philly, with the Family Strap in their bag. I don't know if I can deal with the "F'nFS" again. But I do love playing with Scott. Also haven't seen Miranda in ages and we're hoping to co-top some worthy sub. Key word "worthy." Who's worthy? We'll know him when we see him, LOL!
We'll be at the munch at Moonstruck Diner (9th Ave. and 23rd St.) at 5:30 p.m. Rad already announced on his blog earlier this week that we'll be doing a prize giveaway -- just for the fuck of it. Come early, you might bring a prize home.
I am feeling needy. My friends know it's been stressful lately. Yeah, I know that no one who wasn't going to Shadow Lane feels sorry for us having to cancel! ... but I feel sorry ... waa. (Sticking thumb in mouth like a big baby).
Is it addictive behavior to crave a hard scene? To try to handle, or alleviate, some of the suckiness life hands you sometimes? Maybe. But it hurts no one. Except me, for a little while. LOL.